I have been gone for a while. Wow, I can’t believe that. For people who actually follow my blog I am sorry I have been away for so long. My life has been one giant stress ball and I’ve taken some time off from life in general. I had been focusing on work and just my health. I will eventually get into it probably if anyone is interested but for now I want to move forward and focus on what truly makes me happy. This blog and a so many other things. I have spent the greater part of my life waiting for things to happen to me and not reaching out and making them happen. Why? I really don’t know. Fear probably. The fear that it wont work. The fear that no one will like me. The fear no one will get it. the fear of failing. I had made a choice that when I turned 30 I was going make a lot of changes in my life, and here I am only weeks away from my 33rd birthday (YIKES) still struggling to get air. still struggling with life. still struggling to make a name for myself.
In my mind I am already quite successful, 30 pounds thinner and happier. but in real life my fear and motivation have not quite caught up to my mind. There is a lot of good I want to do with my life and a lot of risks I want to take. Good risks, not the risks I took in the past, but felt I got shut down 90% of the time. Everyone has an opinion of how I should live my life, but honestly, it’s how I chose to live it is whats most important.
My mom sent me this youtube video What if money was no object and said “I finally know what you have meant all these years it makes more sense.”
and it is what i have been saying. That even though money is an important factor do I want to spend my entire life doing something I don’t like or make the choice to follow my dream or passion of what I really want to be/do.
I am going to be quitting my job in January, fitting as it is a new year, and move back to Los Angeles. I am clearly not a spring chicken anymore and I am only getting older, why not make the most of the years I have left to enjoy my youth.
I have to understand that 33 is not death, it is still young even though I am starting to see the signs of age kicking in, I still have plenty of time to make the most of my life.
So, what would you do if money was no object?